My Faith
I'm realizing more and more that what I CANNOT see is more real than what I CAN see. In a sense, God has allowed me to view my life in a supernatural manner, like I'm some kind of X-Men mutant or something. LOL Only He is not limited to a wheelchair, or even to human reasoning. He is above all things, and the privilege of being able to view circumstances from His viewpoint is both humbling and reassuring. The only reason I am confident in my faith is because my faith isn't in my ability to have faith. The object of my faith is the Lord. Plain and simple.
The Change
Truthfully, I got saved at age 14, but because there wasn't a strong foundation of discipleship at my church, I really didn't start living right until I turned 21. The seven years in between were full of confusion and compromise. I was self-taught, though. I got into the Bible for myself and read it cover to cover two or three times. What I read was so totally different from the "culture of church!" So I started living according to God's words, not the words of man.
After that, I lived with that God confidence for years, until all the things that made me secure (money, relationships, body image, health) started falling apart. I was praying to God for answers, thinking I'd done something wrong. I'd always been this "good little Christian girl," and I couldn't understand why all of a sudden, life was so hard.
The first thing shaped my salvation, but the second ordeal shaped my God given identity. I'm so confident now in Who He is, that who I am is wrapped up in His holiness and perfection!
My Hope
The vision God has for my life is being a daughter of the King. That means that my Daddy is pretty much large and in charge, and as long as I stick with Him, no matter wrhat kinds of issues come my way, I'm confident in His ability to guide me through. Now, that doesn't mean that if I decide to do my own thing my way that He's obligated to clean up my mess. But it does mean that no matter how difficult life tries to be, that identity in Him can never fade. Therefore, I'll never fall.
Romans 8:15-17 (The Message Version): This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It's adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike "What's next, Papa?" God's Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what's coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we're certainly going to go through the good times with him!
Isaiah 50:10(The Message Version) Who out there fears God, actually listens to the voice of his servant? For anyone out there who doesn't know where you're going, anyone groping in the dark, here's what: Trust in God. Lean on your God!
Galatians 3:28-29 In Christ's family there can be no division into Jew and non-Jew, slave and free, male and female. Among us you are all equal. That is, we are all in a common relationship with Jesus Christ. Also, since you are Christ's family, then you are Abraham's famous "descendant," heirs according to the covenant promises.
